Liebster Award Nomination

Liebster Award

Thank you Kirsty for the Liebster Award Nomination. I haven’t followed through with other nominations due to my limited time I have to write, but since I am on vacation for one more day, I will put some thought into this. Thank you, Kirsty, for consistently reading my blog and for finding it worthy of this nomination. Go check out Kirsty at Outside the Coffee Cup, you won’t be sorry.
Here are the questions Kirsty asked:
1. Would you rather be able to fly or be able to turn invisible? And why?
I thought I would want to fly, but being invisible would really come in handy when I am in a situation with a lot of people. I suffer from anxiety and sometimes I really wish I could turn invisible.
2. Do you prefer Spring or Autumn? And why?
This would depend where in the country I am. If I’m home I would have to say Spring. Although, the pollen is very hard on my respiratory system, it is still very hot during our Autumn months. The Spring is very pleasant and allows us to be outdoors. I love flowers as well!!
3. If you could meet someone past or present, famous or not, who would it be?
This one was very hard for me to answer. I guess I will have to say….Kurt Cobain because I felt the music industry lost him WAY TOO EARLY. I would have loved to sit and have a cup of coffee with him. I just think it would be the most down to Earth conversation I would ever have.
4. Where is your favorite place to be? And why?
I love the Rocky Mountains. I lived there for 3 years and felt the most inspired living tucked away in the mountains.
5. Are you happy with your life or would you change it?
Do I want to change? Yes, but not my life. I love my life and am very blessed with what God has given me. Nothing is ever going to be perfect, but I have the most amazing family.
6. Someone comes up to you and gives you £10 ($10) what do you spend it on?
Easy…I give it to one of my kids because they are always in the “need” of something. LOL
7. Who is your dream guy or girl? And why?
Honestly, my husband is the most amazing person in the world. He puts up with me! 😉
8. Do you believe in Ghosts? And why?
No. I believe there are devil spirits that “impersonate” the dead, but I believe the dead are dead until The Return of Christ.
9. If you could be any Superhero who would it be? And why?
I am a Superhero (to my kids). LOL Other than that, I don’t want the responsibility.
10. What is your favourite song?
Feel The Silence (Goo Goo Dolls) Why? Just go listen to it. It was written by my favorite songwriter, John Rzeznik, a lyrical genius.

The rules state I come up with 10 questions and nominate 10 blogs that have less than 200 followers. So here it goes:
1. How would (someone) describe your blogging style?
2. What do you do when you aren’t working on your blog?
3. If you could live anywhere, where would it be?
4. What is your favorite thing about your career?
5. What is your proudest accomplishment?
6. What makes you laugh the most?
7. What motivates you to work hard?
8. What is the best gift you have been given?
9. Aside from necessities, what one thing could you not go a day without?
10. If you could share a meal with any 4 individuals, living or dead, who would they be?

I nominate:
This was not in any particular order or based on any specific topic. These are just blogs I enjoy showing up in my feed. Congratulations to y’all and I’m believing this helps get you more traffic, if you decide to accept the nomination. Keep up the great work!


What A Great Monday

As many of you may be with me on this, I don’t particularly enjoy Mondays. I usually have an abundance of emails to attend to and my kids have a harder time getting back in the groove of their studies and I simply want a third day in the weekend. I mean think about it; Saturday I need to catch up on laundry and housework, take the little one to dance, clean up my office from the week, etc. Then Sunday rolls around and we host fellowship in our home, so we need to do final preps before everyone comes, if I’m teaching; I need to do one more quick run through, then my husband and I may have an afternoon meeting, then we get ready for the week. I need Monday, to rest from the weekend.

Today was different though. Today, my husband took the day off. We talked over the weekend about what we wanted to do that would be fun for all of the kids and not cost anything. So we came up with a plan and set out this morning for downtown. When we arrived at our first destination, we all piled out of the truck and headed for the front door. “Gallery is Closed”, read the sign on the door. Well, that would have been good information to put on their website. Art museum – fail! Next: amazing, privately owned park; complete with fountains and splash pads. The park was beautiful, however, it was overcast and I wouldn’t let the little one in the water, but we walked around, took pictures, ate lunch at a picnic table and had a great time.

Next, a plaza in the middle of downtown. No grass, but a stage and a huge open area to run and be silly. It was actually a fun 10 minutes. Then we went looking for the underground shopping. We have lived here 5 years and have never been. So, why not? We arrive and it’s like the Apocalypse occurred and we were in a weird futuristic tunnel system, complete with food court. Not much shopping, but I think you could get to different parts of the city through it. It was kind of cool, and I can say now, that I’ve been there.

All in all, it was a great day. All 3 kiddos had a blast, even with the Art Museum being closed. It made me thankful for many things that I take for granted. I get to work from home, which allows me to set my own schedule and work around my family. (So thankful for that) I homeschool our kids. This allows us to pack a lunch on the spur of the moment and go play downtown for a few hours. What did they learn today? They learned how important it is to spend time together as a family and enjoy one another. We also looked at the art sculptures around town and each of us explained what we saw. This said a lot about my son. LOL The greatest thing I got out of today, was the fact that I did NOT have an anxiety attack because we strayed off of my routine. I did my work this evening instead, and I was completely okay with it. (Not one ounce of anxiety) That is huge progress and I am so thankful for that!

So….4 hours downtown cost: $0.00, Value: Priceless



My Therapy: I’m So Judgmental

Will there ever be a time when I don’t question every thought I have? Will this be something I deal with for the rest of my life? Will I ever get to the point where I can just accept myself as me, and be okay with that? Why is my first reaction to judge myself? I highly doubt others are judging me as often as I feel judged. Why am I so judgmental?

I ask these questions of myself all the time. I react to situations as if I’m under attack, when in reality; it has nothing to do with me. Many times I feel that my own mind is my worst enemy. I feel that I could control my anxiety, my depression, and my outbursts just by not being so judgmental. The funny thing is…no one is judging me. (At least I don’t think so…)

I say that I feel that I’m being judged in certain situations, but the truth is, I’m the one that’s doing the judging. I’m the one making myself feel inadequate. I’m the one pointing out my flaws and telling myself I’m not as good as someone else. No one has ever pointed out my flaws (at least to my face). Except that one time, but that woman was mean and horribly awful! Once I stopped crying, I realized she was purposing trying to be hurtful. She was a complete stranger, what did I care what she thought? But I did, I do care (way too much) what other people think. That’s one of the reasons I took so long to start writing again. What if I sucked? What if no one enjoyed what I wrote? What if? What if? What if? Ugh! The “what ifs” are so exhausting and hindering. “What if’s can paralyze us mentally, spiritually, and physically.

I tell myself I’m not going to think this way any longer. I try to change my thoughts when those negative ones creep in, but sometimes they seem to always linger in the depths of my mind. They slowly creep out when I least expect it, slowly making their way to the front of my mind where they think they have control. It’s tiring to need validation all the time. I don’t want so much confidence that I am no longer humble, but just enough that I can stop judging myself, comparing myself to others.  I actually have had the thought that the other baseball moms wouldn’t want to hang out with me because I wasn’t as thin and cute as them! How ridiculous is that?!?!?! Stupid right? But those thoughts creep in. They are the nicest ladies I have ever met, but I get so intimidated. I just want to love me, for me. I’m a pretty cool person, why can’t I accept that others might think so too?

Where Am I Going With This

Once again, Harsh Reality made me think, and push myself a little in that thinking. (He’s pretty good at that,and that’s why I follow him.) He asks the question What Kind of Blogger Are You?

I wasn’t sure what kind I was, I wasn’t even sure what kind I wanted to be. What do I want to be when I grow up? 🙂 I really didn’t know how to answer that, so I thought; Where do I want to go with this blog? What do I want to accomplish? Hmmm…Let’s start with why did I start this addictive hobby? Hobby? Is that what it is? Again, I ponder; racking my brain for an answer, telling myself there has to be a reason. I don’t log in because I’m bored and have nothing better to do.Lord knows I have 237 other things I am supposed to be getting done right now. I know I’m a writer, I know that some day, soon, I want to make a supplement income with my writing so that my time is freed up and I can write more often. I know that when I write, I am happy. I’m in a world that is mine and I feel like myself. I’m relax and inventive and purely me. (I feel a poem brewing.) 🙂 I know that when I am this happy, I am better for God, I’m a better wife, a better mother, and just plain better.

I remember my first comment I received on my blog. I was ecstatic. I had reached someone with my words. I had made an impact on someone’s life by what I wrote. That’s what drives me to blog. The opportunity I have to reach people with my written (or typed) words. I started the blog to help evolve my writing skills and learn from other writers, but after a day I realized I want to reach people, I want what I write, to entertain and inspire. (Depending on what I’m writing)

Where am I going with this? As far as I can!